So, I have about 2 weeks until my fiance leaves for school. It's really eating at me, him being 3 hours away. My family just doesn't *GET* it. They think since we go 3-7 days without seeing each other that this will be easy for me. It's never EASY, even when we are only 30 minutes away when he's at home. Those 3-7 days SUCK, really bad. It's not fun. It's also hard for people to understand how much you struggle with it especially when they LIVE with their SOs. It also is the icing on the cake that our conversations will be very short and mostly in between classes/while he's driving to school.
I've had several times with 4th of July weekend where I've gotten teary eyed. I don't want him to know I'm sad/upset already. He's already (hopefully jokingly) suggested him not going because it would just be easier. I will NOT take this dream away from him. I will NOT be that girl. This blog will be where I express my frustrations/sadness/bad days, not to him. Having an exam every 3 weeks over 1000-1500 pages of material is enough to drive a person batty, let alone having a needy fiancee who is demanding a long phone conversation. I don't think I'd read 1000-1500 pages on my own...for fun in 3 weeks. Let alone 1000-1500 pages of TEXTBOOKS, if nursing school has taught me anything, it's that reading a text book sucks HORRIBLY.
Yeah, I'm a nursing student. I'm about to start my senior year. It'll be a journey.
Our original wedding date was to be June 23, 2012 but due to the board exams being that summer (right about when our wedding would be!) and him going straight into rotations shortly after, a wedding isn't really plausible that summer. Summer 2011 just makes sense, except my older sister is getting married 9/10/11 and is beyond pissed about the wedding being before hers and "stealing her time" before her wedding. Shooooot--didn't know we had entire SEASONS leading up to our weddings. Anyways, my dad said he can't financially pay for a portion of the wedding due to his house payment going up and him already having paid for part of my sister's wedding which is TOTALLY fine but he also wants FH and I to wait until he's out of school...yes! SEVEN YEARS!!!!!!! Where did he get this to be a good idea??? A 7 year LDR is NOT cool and FH and I don't want to live together before we're married so that's not an option. It's really looking like we'll have to go against my dad's wishes and just do it next summer. FH's parents thought our original wedding date was SO far away, 7 years?!?! GOSH! I'm seriously ready to just go to the courthouse but I know we'll regret it.
I'm out, I need to run errands.
Live in Love
Live & Let Live <3
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